THE TWO POINTS OF VIEW: EGOIC CONUNDRUM
I have read ample teachings to the point I can write Spiritual research papers, and I have immense respect for all the seekers and advanced Abiders, Spiritual Scientists and Truth Tellers for sharing their unique expressions, inviting us to witness their love for the craft of writing, to bow down in front of their kindness and enthusiasm.
As these are vivid expressions customized per their unique experiences, I became quite observant of seekers answering from an Absolute point of view. This viewpoint essentially is truth, and anything apart from truth is adulteration. Each answer reflecting truth is to be revered because of the quality of view and perspective.
However, for certain seekers, who often utilise the logical faculties to weigh any new understanding, it leads to an innocuous contradiction.
I remember from my own journey, I was fascinated by spirituality but I became confused when I heard advanced seekers speak of the apparent ‘I’ being an ego that doesn’t exist.
But it was absolutely real from my experience because I knew of nothing else apart from this egoic identity. Hence, the absolute point of view resonated but I was in constant need of the words of truth for me to remember this reality.
This didn’t help much until I met my teacher Rupert Spira and I understood and recognised a slight misunderstanding. A fault of my egoic interpretation!
I understood that until the purification is stretched to the point where my identity becomes synonymous with reality, I will always understand Spiritual Awakening as an experience.
Listening to Francis Lucille, I realized that I have to “Kick the ‘me’ out of this system” and cite it as ‘illusory’ during my stretched periods of extreme identification with a limited entity.
Sir Adi Shankaracharya’s revered analogies and Abhinav Gupta’s discourses validated my usage of mental faculties to articulate this understanding, this experiential truth!
I absolutely adore these contemporary teachers who presented both points of view and allowed me to see that the truth peeps through even from the dense veneer of egoic identification!
I was able to fully embrace and recognise my seeking journey. Every purification step became a profound experience, a bliss, a magical unfolding.
As much as an egoic identity is illusory, sometimes all it takes is for us to notice how truth shines even amid this identification.
A piece of art, an experience of truth, participation in oneness, a brush of happiness, all these experiences bring about a pause in the stream of constant identification.
And this understanding is sheer Gold. It allowed me to take a detached leap to recognise and fully embrace my reality, my truth!
And as the dense curtain of ego deconstructs itself and is deemed sheerer and sheerer, the reality consumes, dissolves and erases the final trail.
Ego then is known, recognised and is seen as illusory in one’s own experience! It becomes a seeker’s own experience. A seeker becomes self-reliant and independent from dependency on teachings!
This precisely looks like a phenomenon analogous to the ripening of fruit. The fruit spontaneously drops and becomes independent of the tree.