I love these reflections of yours Sri Devi that come only from the purity of witnessing and understanding stemmed in your own heart. I have listened to Swami Ji and I believe what is petty for us holds a big purpose in its bosom. Also, enlightened ones are undeterred and no experience can change their constant state of awareness. I read somewhere that J Krishnamurti and Ramana Maharishi underwent a major operation without taking anesthesia.